A year older, a year wiser (hopefully!). Even though it may seemed like I did not enjoy myself on my birthday but it doesn't matter. I'm more than thankful to the Almighty that I've got to live till now. My existance in this world seems to be insignificant to some but I'm thankful for the bunch of people I truly love.

I am blessed. Period.

As we speak, a year older and a year wiser, I hope that I'll be more wiser in making decisions and deciding the path that I want to take. I want to grow up but at the same time I also want to be a kid. But then, years don't go backwards. They go forward. Its time I start to think about my future. Its time I'm being considerate and not selfish. And its time for me to love myself more and find out about myself than spending time figuring out and loving others before self. What I mean is having a boyfriend.

I used to think, boyfriend is everything. How crude can I be and how easy can I get! But that was not for long. I decided that now, its time to stand on my own two feet. Afterall, all of these, lies in God's hand. So who am I to defeat fate?

I've been in and out of love and all because of my own selfish-ness, clingy-ness and too depending on someone. And my expectations were too high. But I really don't care because I was blinded by LOVE to even bother about those shortcomings. Its not healthy baby. Its ruining the relationship. I realised, people who are in a relationship don't have to meet every single day, talk for long hours every single day just to prove you love them. Its more than meets the eye.

If you're not sure about yourself, don't rush into commiting yourself in a relationship. Its like taking a step to jump down a cliff. Love yourself first before you start loving other people. And don't be too dependant on them and don't make them your everything cos when they are gone, you'll be left with nothing. And to those who whines and sighs and moan looking at people madly in love, don't be. Cos good things will come to those who wait. Expect the unexpected. If it happens, it happens. Just so you know, if it's meant to be, it will always find its way.

Till then, I'll see you in the next post!

XOXO.